Where are my affections? I almost ran out of them yesterday. Whether it was the early wake up or something else I don’t know but it made me feel vulnerable and not in control. My tolerance level was near zero. My patience nil. Anything would spark it off, the near constant ‘daaad’ adding to the constant not listening to the answer was driving me insane. And I’ve never felt like that before.
Perhaps this dull pain I’ve been experiencing hasn’t helped but that can’t be an excuse. Nor should being tired. I’ve had worse sleeps and that should not be the cause of losing the rag all day long. Better today, though I feel now like the anxiety has returned and my nerves are all over the place. And that’s to do with calling the docs. I always hate doing that, and why I don’t do it until I have to.