‘Remembering my ignorance’ is something I think of often. I’m glad to see it’s a sign of growth, progress and most likely maturity as well. You know shit when you’re younger, yet you think you know it all. I’m sure I’d do a better job in nearly all my jobs if I was doing them now. I was thinking of this in relation to my jiu-jitsu game earlier and how I previously did not understand key principles as position, or opponent’s hips movement. Almost embarrassing to think I competed once with knowing shit and even something like that little bit of kimura knowledge would have won me a second fight. Funny how that is the one I remember, not the victory.
What did I even know back then? That I was neither strong nor explosive and with very little arsenal. My arm-bars sucked. I know so much more about control now, and obviously have a bit more weight and strength about me too. Still, the fact that I know more now and still know shit is encouraging. Even the best black belts acknowledge this, so I’m in good company. Jiu-jitsu is life and I’m enjoying exploring this again in relation to my own. Just better.