If I could see my life as a taper or a candle I wonder at what stage it would be at. Would it still be tall, or short and stubby, or mostly melted? My body feels pretty fucked at the moment so the latter would be my guess. I don’t know if it was the escapades on the minibus on Wednesday that’s made me feel like this as bjj wasn’t particularly taxing this week, or even sore. I do a good warm up for it anyway and always feel good going into it. Kicking, punching, head butting and spitting less so. My necks sore and this affects the upper body. My lower back is sore as is my left hip in a mockingly separate injury. My right foot is still stiff, my running ability zero. My kicking pathetic. And this is without a career in martial arts.
So am I a melted pile of wax in a bowl? Or the taper burnt at the end, nibbling at the fingertips? But I started lifting weights again, bench and dumbbells only for now, and I’m not risking even a light squat or deadlift, and weirdly I started feeling better. I feel harder, stronger and this to me is always better. Woods today with the boys hopefully if the stormy weather doesn’t stop us.